Following your heart makes flowers bloom

I realized that I must have gone in the wrong direction with my thoughts that maybe I should do more. It was the little signs that made me feel this way: suddenly it became so disturbing that my husband, who has brought me flowers all the time over the years, hadn't done so in a few weeks. 

At the same time, I saw in Instagram a drawing of a girl with a big bouquet of pink flowers, with the text: "Listen to your heart." And then, while reading the news, I suddenly saw a large text in the advertisement strip: "A better tomorrow starts with a good feeling today. It has been like this for 30 years.” Well, actually, it's probably been that way for even longer.

The icing on the cake was when I went to the opening party of a new night club on Friday night and there was a neon text on the wall: "Do what you love!" In a nightclub?! Why? To me? :)

And then, when I had decided to give up some obligations and return to the slow life I loved, I took a little nap on Friday night after my last day at work. When I woke up, I found a big bouquet of flowers brought by my husband on the kitchen table…

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Südame järgimine paneb lilled õitsema

Sain aru, et olen vist valesse suunda astunud oma “Ehk peaks rohkem tegema?” mõtete mõjul. Väiksed märgid olid need, mis seda tunnet tekitasid: äkki hakkas nii häirima, et mu mees, kes on mulle läbi aastate kogu aeg lilli toonud, polnud seda paar nädalat teinud. Samal ajal nägin joonistust tüdrukust sületäie roosade lilledega, koos tekstiga: “Kuula oma südant.” 

Ja siis nägin uudiseid lugedes äkki reklaamiribal suurt teksti: “Parem homme algab heast tundest täna. Nii on see olnud juba 30 aastat.” Noh, tegelikult on see nii olnud ilmselt veel kauem.

Kirsina koogil mõjus see, kui reede õhtul läksin uue ööklubi avapeole ja seal oli seinal neoonkirjas tekst: “Tee seda, mida armastad!” Ööklubis?! Miks ometi? Mulle? :)

Ja siis, kui olin otsustanud loobuda ning armastatud kirjanikuelu juurde naasta, tegin reede õhtul pärast viimast tööpäeva väikese uinaku. Ärgates leidsin köögilaualt mehe toodud suure lillekimbu…