FEELING

A wise man once told me that our soul knows in advance what is coming, and signals it with a feeling. That is why some people always give off a strange feeling, even though today, here and now everything seems great… and there is an inexplicable good feeling near another. “It is worth going in the direction of a good feeling,” he advised.

The end of another summer in my lovely small town created a feeling of emptiness in my soul this time, so even though there were golden foil hearts scattered on my path when I came back from buying flowers, I still started to notice that every time I drive towards the capital, the energies start moving. Time to set off in that direction again?!

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Tunne

Üks tark mees ütles mulle kunagi, et meie hing teab ette, mis tulemas on, suurt plaani, ja annab tundega sellest märku. Sellepärast tekitab mõni inimene alati imelikku tunnet, ehkki täna, siin ja praegu on kõik justkui tore… ja teise lähedal on seletamatult hea tunne. “Tasub minna hea tunde suunas,” soovitas ta.

Järjekordne suve lõpp mu armsas väikelinnas tekitas hinges igatahes tühjusetunnet, nii et ehkki lilli ostmast tulles oli mu teele ikka kuldseid fooliumsüdameid puistatud, märkasin siiski, et juba pealinna poole sõites lähevad energiad iga kord liikuma ja elu käima. Aeg taas mõneks ajaks sinnapoole sättida?!

FOLLOW THE SIGNS

After a break, I started learning Spanish again with the Duolingo app. My eyes widened in surprise when I suddenly saw the text on the screen: “Tienes que seguir las senales.” - “You have to follow the signs.”

Good advice.

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Järgi märke

Võtsin pärast pausi uuesti ette Duolingo äpiga hispaania keele õppimise. Tegin rõõmsast üllatusest üsna suuri silmi, kui nägin äkki ekraanil teksti: “Tienes que seguir las senales.” - “You have to follow the signs.” - “Sa pead järgima märke.”

Hea soovitus.

HORSEBACK RIDING

According to a symbolic story I once heard, getting on a horse is a symbol of taking control of your own destiny. I received a gift certificate for my birthday, chose a horseback riding trip, and then kept putting it off. The questions of who to go with and finding a suitable time were complicated. Finally, over two years later in the summer, I made an appointment for the beginning of August and we went with a friend.

Of course, it began to seem very significant that, in addition to the fact that by that moment I had removed everything unnecessary from my life in terms of work and dedicated myself to writing books, I had also ended a relationship with a person, with whom I wasn’t able to spread my wings fully. Another coincidence: a week earlier I saw the name "Mikk" written at the bus stop and now I got a horse named Miku!

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Ratsutamine

Ühe kunagi kuuldud mõistujutu tulemusena seostub hobuse selga saamine minu jaoks oma saatuse alistamise ja enda kätesse võtmisega. Ma sain ümmarguseks sünnipäevaks elamuse kinkekaardi, valisin ratsamatka ja lükkasin seda siis muudkui edasi. Küsimused, kellega minna ja sobiva aja leidmine olid keerulised. Lõpuks üle kahe aastaa hiljem suvel panin augusti algusse aja ja läksime sõbraga.

See hakkas muidugi väga märgiline tunduma, et lisaks sellele, et olin tolleks hetkeks tööalaselt kõik liigse oma elust eemaldanud ning raamatute kirjutamisele pühendunud, läksin enne seda lahku suhtest, kus ei saanud täielikult oma tiibu sirutada. Veel üks kokkusattumus: nägin nädal varem bussipeatusesse kirjutatud nime “Mikk” ja nüüd sain Miku-nimelise hobuse!

WINDMILL

I was on the ferry, having just shared with a friend in the car how I would like to go faster, higher, further with my goals…

I came across a stall in the toilet, on one side of the door of which was a riddle “Going up, can’t go up; coming down, can’t go down?” & on the other side the answer: windmill wings.

Since there was a windmill behind the gate of my ancestral home on an island and as a former airline worker I also love airplanes (which also have wings), it started to seem very significant… What is it that keeps me grounded and doesn’t let me fly?

And what helps me fly? Fascinating symbols.

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Tuuliku tiivad

Olin praamil, olles just autos jaganud sõbraga, kuidas tahaks oma eesmärkidega seoses kiiremini, kõrgemale, kaugemale…

Sattusin tualetis boksi, mille ukse ühel poolel oli mõistatus “Üles lähevad, üles ei saa; alla tulevad, maha ei saa?” & teisel pool vastus: tuuliku tiivad.

Kuna mu emapoolse suguvõsa kunagise talu värava taga Muhus on Eemu tuulik ja lennufirmas töötanuna armastan ma lennukeid ka (millel on samuti tiivad), siis hakkas väga märgiline tunduma… Mis see on, mis mind maa küljes kinni hoiab ega lendu ei lase?

Ja mis aitab mind lendu? Inspireerivad sümbolid.

QUEEN OF HEARTS

Sometimes there can be a bad day in between the good ones. After one of these, I slowly recovered… and in the evening I managed to go to the parcel machine on my bike to pick up a package that arrived. I thought it was a package of cosmetics I had ordered, so I was very surprised when I found a white T-shirt with a red embroidered Q (like Queen) and a heart. 

I had thought that when I ordered this shirt, I accidentally gave my capital city address and it would go there, so its arrival in my lovely small town was a real surprise. As was the timing - impressive, universe! I guess I had finally reached the pure energy of a queen who is true to her heart…

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Südamete kuninganna

Vahel võib visata idülli vahele ühe halva päeva. Pärast ühte sellist olin üsna ribadeks, toibusin tasapisi… ja õhtul jaksasin minna jalgrattaga pakiautomaati saabunud saadetise järele. Arvasin, et see on mu tellitud kosmeetikatoodete pakk, nii et suur oli mu üllatus, kui leidsin pakist hoopis valge maika punase tikitud Q (nagu Queen, kuninganna) ja südamega.

Olin arvanud, et seda särgikut tellides läks kogemata mu pealinna aadress ja see läheb sinna, nii et selle saabumine mu armsasse väikelinna oli tõeine üllatus. Nagu ka ajastus - muljetavaldav, universum! Ma vist olingi tõesti lõpuks puhtasse oma südamele truu kuninganna energiasse jõudnud…

TAKE ME TO CHAMPAGNE

I had been relaxing and doing nothing for a week, so on Thursday evening I really started to feel like going out with my friend, partying, drinking champagne, dancing…

Universum and Instagram responded with a stylish black and white photo of two girls hitchhiking, holding a sign with the text: “Take me to Champagne!”

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Šampanja

Olin saanud nädal aega mõnusalt puhata ja mitte midagi teha, nii et neljapäeva õhtul hakkas juba väga tunne tulema, et tahaks sõbrannaga välja, pidu, šampanjat, tantsida…

Universum ja Instagram reageerisid stiilse must-valge fotoga kahest tüdrukust hääletamas, käes silt tekstiga: “Take me to Champagne!”

BLACK SUV & MARRIAGE

My husband was thinking about changing his car when I suddenly remembered that over 20 years ago I teased one of my male friends by saying that I would marry a man who had a big black SUV! My husband had two…

I don’t remember where I got that idea from back then, but… ask and you shall receive! 

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Must maastur & abiellumine

Mees mõtles autot vahetada, kui mulle äkki meenus, et üle 20 aasta tagasi kiusasin ühte oma tollast austajat väitega, et abiellun mehega, kellel on suur must maastur! Mu abikaasal oli neid kaks…

Kust ma jutu selle toona võtsin, ei mäleta, aga… küsi ja Sulle antakse! 

ENJOY THE PROCESS

There are great places on the Internet where you can draw a weekly card - I did that and got: “I get to enjoy the process of creating my desires.”

Beautiful. And that's how I felt at that moment, in the middle of a wonderful summer - I was slowly writing the next book and enjoying every moment.

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Naudin protsessi

Internetis on toredaid kohti, kus saab nädala kaardi tõmmata - tegin seda ja sain: “Ma naudin oma unistuste teoks tegemise protsessi.” 

Ilus. Ja nii ma sel hetkel tundsin ka, keset Eestimaa imelist suve - kirjutasin tasapisi järgmist raamatut ja nautisin iga hetke.