Wedding day

I woke up on my wedding day with excitement, but of course I was also a little anxious about whether everything would go exactly as planned. In any case, the universe immediately sent supportive signs: when we were driving to the edge of the city with the photographer, coming from doing makeup and hair, there was a car in front of us with a combination of numbers that had expressed support for me for years, complemented by the letter combination "TRR", so it seemed very much meant for me.

In addition, the sun was shining in the blue sky and the temperatures kept rising - at the beginning of September there had been a lot of grey, rainy and cool weather, but for the wedding day we got the perfect sunny weather of 20 degrees. And our secret wedding still ended in the company of friends - accidentaly, there were also two couples of our good friends in the Pädaste manor and restaurant, where we celebrated our wedding, so even though we had wanted to be alone and started the dinner alone, it was very nice to finally share the wedding cake with our friends - we considered it a good sign.

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Pulmapäev

Ärkasin oma pulmapäeval elevusega, aga natuke muidugi pabistasin ka, kas kõik läheb just nii, nagu planeeritud. Universum lennutas igatahes kohe toetavad märgid kohale: meiki-soengut tegemast tulles koos fotograafiga autoga linna serva poole sõites oli meie ees auto mu jaoks aastaid toetust väljendanud numbrikombinatsiooniga, mida täiendas tähekombinatsioon “TRR”, nii et see tundus igatahes väga mulle mõeldud.

Lisaks säras sinitaevas päike ja temperatuurid muudkui tõusid - septembri algul oli olnud palju halle, vihmaseid ja jahedaid ilmu, aga pulmapäevaks sain soovitud ideaalse päikesepaistelise 20 kraadi sooja ilma. Ning meie salapulm lõppes ikkagi sõprade seltskonnas - juhuslikult olid Pädaste mõisas ja restoranis ka kaks paari meie häid sõpru, nii et ehkki olime tahtnud kahekesi olla ja alustasimegi ikkagi õhtusööki kahekesi, oli sõpradega lõpuks pulmatorti jagada väga tore ja lugesime ka selle heaks märgiks.

Rain and sun

It's amazing how the weather can also be a sign. Sometimes I have found it more difficult to interpret these signs, but this time the messages were very clear. I started a new school year and new subjects in university. I rather reluctantly took one of the mandatory subjects, which didn't really appeal to me (although the lecturer turned out to be very nice). On the way to university that day, it was raining and the sky was so grey, so grey.

The next morning I had to have a novel course, which was just as nice and exciting as I had hoped. The weather was exceptionally warm that one day in September, 24 degrees, the sun was shining, on the way home, one yellow butterfly after another flew towards me, and the air felt totally Mediterranean.

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Vihm ja päike

See on hämmastav, kuidas ilm võib ka olla märk. Vahel on mul nende märkide tõlgendamine keerulisem tundunud, aga seekord olid ikka väga selged sõnumid. Mul algas uus kooliaasta ja uued õppeaineid Tartus. Võtsin üsna vastumeelselt ühe kohustusliku valikaine, mis mind väga ei köitnud (ehkki õppejõud osutus väga toredaks). Tol päeval kooli sõites sadas ladinal vihma ja kõik oli nii hall, nii hall.

Järgmisel hommikul pidi mul olema Eesti romaani kursus, mis oli just nii tore ja põnev, kui olin lootnudki. Ilm oli just tol ühel päeval erakordselt soe, 24 kraadi, päike säras, koduteel lendas üks kollane liblikas teise järel mulle vastu ning õhk oli täiesti vahemereline.

The joy of letting go

I had joined an organization that looked like there could be fun. Unfortunately, the reality was much less fun and included more responsibilities than I had thought. Endlessly long boring meetings etc. When I had endured for a year and realized at the beginning of the new year that it probably wasn't going to get any better, I started playing with the idea of ​​ending the membership. 

I had already almost made up my mind anyway, but then I read somewhere the idea that you can take angel cards for different options and see what they say. I happened to have a deck of goddess cards so I gave it a try.

At first I wondered what would happen if I stayed there. The feeling became difficult, as it always is when pushing yourself into pointless frames, that was already the answer, but I still drew a card - and I burst out laughing with surprise, because I got "Confess your mistakes", along with a suggestion to forgive yourself and move on, if you kissed a frog, who did not turn into a prince.

Then I thought about leaving - the feeling became easy and I got a card with a text "Meditate or do yoga. Take a walk. Rest”, with a comment that your inner wisdom goes back to ancient times, don't delay bringing it into your life. The next day I sent a resignation letter and I felt better, I walked, rested and immediately enjoyed life more, that same evening friends came over with pizzas, we drank champagne and it was super fun night.

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Rõõm lahtilaskmisest

Olin liitunud ühe organisatsiooniga, kus tundus, et võiks olla tore. Reaalsus paraku oli palju vähem lõbu ja rohkem kohustusi, kui olin arvanud. Lõputult venivaid igavaid koosolekuid ja muud minu jaoks mõttetut. Kui olin aasta aega vastu pidanud ja sain uue ringi alguses aru, et paremaks ilmselt ei lähegi, hakkasin mängima mõttega liikmelisuse lõpetamisest.

Olin juba peaaegu otsustanud nagunii, aga lugesin siis kuskilt seda mõtet, et eri valikute puhul võib tõmmata inglikaarte ja vaadata, mis need räägivad. Mul oli parasjagu käepärast jumalannakaartide pakk, nii et proovisin siis.

Kõigepealt mõtlesin, mis juhtub siis, kui jätkan. Tunne läks raskeks, nagu end mõttetutesse raamidesse surudes ikka, juba see oli vastus, aga tõmbasin siiski kaardi - ja puhkesin üllatusest naerma, sest tuli “Tunnista oma vigu”, koos soovitusega endale andestada ja edasi minna, kui suudlesid konna, kes ei muutugi printsiks.

Seejärel mõtlesin väljaastumisest - tunne läks kergeks ja kaart tuli “Mediteeri või tee joogat. Jaluta. Puhka”, mis lisas, et Su sisemine tarkus ulatub tagasi iidsetesse aegadesse, ära viivita selle toomisega oma ellu. Järgmisel päeval saatsin loobumisavalduse ja tunne läkski heaks, jalutasin, puhkasin ja nautisin elu kohe rohkem, samal õhtul sadasid sõbrad pitsadega külla, jõime šampanjat ning oli ülilõbus.

Financial luck

About a month before I got married, I was cleaning the garden shed and swept out a dung beetle from under the stove. I was so startled that my heart skipped a beat, because I thought at first that there was a cricket coming from under the stove, and in the movie "Practical Magic" it was a very bad omen for marriage.

I recovered a bit, googled and realized that the cricket looks completely different. The one I found, however, was a dung beetle who predicts great financial luck.

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Rahaõnn

Umbes kuu aega enne abiellumist koristasin aiamajas ja pühkisin ahju alt välja musta sitika. Ma ehmatasin nii, et süda tegi jõnksu, sest ma arvasin esimese hooga, et ahju alt tuli kilk ja filmis “Igapäevane nõiakunst” oli see abielule ülihalb enne.

Toibusin natuke, guugeldasin ja sain aru, et kilk näeb hoopis teistsugune välja. See, kelle ma leidsin, oli aga hoopis sitasitikas, kes ennustab suurt rahaõnne.

Burden

I had to go to the capital and the night before I woke up at five o'clock with a hellish pain in my shoulder. I thought about it - after all, I already know my body and its signs - and assumed that I had picked some too heavy burdens on my shoulders.

The next day, when I was driving to the capital, TWO prominently bright yellow trucks lined up in front of me, BOTH of them had the text on them: ”We carry your burden”. A little reminder from the universe? That you are not alone with your burdens?! Ask for help and give them away.

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Koorem

Pidin Tallinna sõitma ja ööl enne seda ärkasin viie ajal põrguliku õlavalu peale. Mõtisklesin selle üle - ma ju juba tunnen oma keha ja tema märke - ning oletasin, et olen mingeid liiga raskeid koormaid oma õlgadele korjanud.

Järgmisel päeval Tallinna sõites reastusid pärast Tartut mu ette KAKS silmapaistvalt erekollast veoautot, MÕLEMAL kastil tekst “Meie kanname Sinu koormat”. Väike meeldetuletus universumilt? Et Sa ei ole oma koormatega üksi?! Küsi abi ja anna need ära.