I was sick, for the second time in a short time. As I like to look for reasons, I thought about the question of what is the message of this disease and took playfully a card from a deck of magic cards. Magical - I received a card with the text "Trust your path: if you knew you would be supported, what would you do?" - and I had just told a friend how I hesitantly accepted two tasks, which I did somewhat reluctantly. Such things had caused me internal conflicts before, but the body's messages and their clarity stunned me again.
If I knew I would be supported, I obviously wouldn't have bothered with these jobs.
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Usalda oma rada
Olin ilgelt vastikult haige, juba teist korda lühikese aja jooksul. Kuna mulle meeldib põhjuseid otsida, siis mõtlesin küsimusele, mis selle haiguse sõnum on ja võtsin mänguliselt võlukaartide pakist kaardi. Maagiline - sain kaardi tekstiga “Usalda oma rada: kui Sa teaksid, et Sind toetatakse, mida Sa teeksid?” - ja ma olin just sõbrale rääkinud, kuidas võtsin kõhklustega vastu kaks tellimustööd, mida ma tegin pisut vastumeelselt. Sellised asjad olid minus varemgi sisemisi konflikte tekitanud, aga keha sõnumid ja nende selgus jahmatasid taas.
Kui ma teaksin, et mind toetatakse, siis ma ilmselgelt poleks end nende töödega vaevanud.