I never tire of being amazed by the elegant signs with which the soul guides us on the right path through the body. I had promised to replace a journalist during his vacation in July… and then it started. Two days later, I woke up early in the morning with such a stomachache that I finally called an ambulance, who took me to the hospital, where fortunately I received rather encouraging answers. Another half a week later, I was troubled by a next health problem, which I had not felt in years.
Of course, I took my time after that, looked deeply into myself and my diaries from previous years, and what did I discover? Similar health problems had struck me precisely in sync during the previous two replacements. When a book suggested that the root cause of this health problem was that you are tired of old, then… I gave myself permission to enjoy the summer and asked them to find someone else.
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Tervislik suvi
Ma ei väsi imestamast nende elegantsete märkide üle, millega hing keha kaudu meid õigele teele suunab. Olin lubanud ühte ajakirjanikku juulis puhkuse ajal asendada, kui hakkas pihta. Kaks päeva hiljem ärkasin varahommikul sellise kõhuvaluga, et kutsusin lõpuks endale kiirabi, kes sõidutas mu haiglasse, kus õnneks sain siiski pigem julgustavaid vastuseid. Veel pool nädalat hiljem tülitas mind järgmine tervisehäda, mida ma polnud vahepeal aastaid tundnud.
Selle peale võtsin muidugi aega, vaatasin põhjalikult endasse ja oma varasemate aastate päevikutesse ning mis ma avastasin? Sarnased tervisemured olid mind tabanud just eelmise kahe asendamisega sünkroonis. Kui siis veel üks raamat pakkus selle tervisemure juurpõhjuseks, et oled vanast surmani tüdinenud, siis… andsin endale loa suve nautida ja palusin neil keegi teine leida.
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