YOU WANT IT, YOU CAN HAVE IT

A friend shared the text on the truck in an Instagram story: “You want it, you can have it.”

It resonated and felt like a sign to me too, because I had just found an amazing travel deal. So I booked the trip… and it turned out to be amazing. :)

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Sa tahad seda, Sa saad selle

Tuttav jagas Instagrami storys veoauto kastil nähtud teksti: “Sa tahad seda, Sa võid selle saada.”

Resoneerus ja tundus märk ka mulle, sest olin just leidnud imelise reisipakkumise. Nii et ostsin reisi ära… ja see osutus imeliseks :)

SUNNY GLADES

I had made some changes in my life and felt as if I had stepped out of the shadows into the sunlight.

As I opened the little book “God Speaks” that had come into my hands, I was met by a beautiful passage: “Do not think that suffering is the only way to My Kingdom. There are also sunny glades and flower-lined paths along which people’s hearts are drawn to Me. There are birds and laughter and butterflies, warm, invigorating summer air, and with them – with gentle companions and friends – one can walk the Path of Joy towards the Kingdom of God.”

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Päikeselised lagendikud

Olin teinud mõned elumuutused ja tunne oli, nagu oleks varjust päikesevalguse kätte astunud.

Näppu sattunud raamatut “Jumal kõneleb” suvaliselt kohalt avades vaatas vastu imeilus lõik: “Ärge arvake, et kannatus on ainus tee Minu Kuningriiki. On ka päikeselisi lagendikke ja lilledega ääristatud teid, mida mööda inimeste südameid Minu poole tõmmatakse. On linde ja naeru ja liblikaid, sooja elustavat suveõhku ning koos nendega - õrnade kaaslaste ja sõpradega - võib astuda mööda Rõõmuteed Jumalariigi poole.”

FEELING

A wise man once told me that our soul knows in advance what is coming, and signals it with a feeling. That is why some people always give off a strange feeling, even though today, here and now everything seems great… and there is an inexplicable good feeling near another. “It is worth going in the direction of a good feeling,” he advised.

The end of another summer in my lovely small town created a feeling of emptiness in my soul this time, so even though there were golden foil hearts scattered on my path when I came back from buying flowers, I still started to notice that every time I drive towards the capital, the energies start moving. Time to set off in that direction again?!

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Tunne

Üks tark mees ütles mulle kunagi, et meie hing teab ette, mis tulemas on, suurt plaani, ja annab tundega sellest märku. Sellepärast tekitab mõni inimene alati imelikku tunnet, ehkki täna, siin ja praegu on kõik justkui tore… ja teise lähedal on seletamatult hea tunne. “Tasub minna hea tunde suunas,” soovitas ta.

Järjekordne suve lõpp mu armsas väikelinnas tekitas hinges igatahes tühjusetunnet, nii et ehkki lilli ostmast tulles oli mu teele ikka kuldseid fooliumsüdameid puistatud, märkasin siiski, et juba pealinna poole sõites lähevad energiad iga kord liikuma ja elu käima. Aeg taas mõneks ajaks sinnapoole sättida?!

FOLLOW THE SIGNS

After a break, I started learning Spanish again with the Duolingo app. My eyes widened in surprise when I suddenly saw the text on the screen: “Tienes que seguir las senales.” - “You have to follow the signs.”

Good advice.

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Järgi märke

Võtsin pärast pausi uuesti ette Duolingo äpiga hispaania keele õppimise. Tegin rõõmsast üllatusest üsna suuri silmi, kui nägin äkki ekraanil teksti: “Tienes que seguir las senales.” - “You have to follow the signs.” - “Sa pead järgima märke.”

Hea soovitus.

HORSEBACK RIDING

According to a symbolic story I once heard, getting on a horse is a symbol of taking control of your own destiny. I received a gift certificate for my birthday, chose a horseback riding trip, and then kept putting it off. The questions of who to go with and finding a suitable time were complicated. Finally, over two years later in the summer, I made an appointment for the beginning of August and we went with a friend.

Of course, it began to seem very significant that, in addition to the fact that by that moment I had removed everything unnecessary from my life in terms of work and dedicated myself to writing books, I had also ended a relationship with a person, with whom I wasn’t able to spread my wings fully. Another coincidence: a week earlier I saw the name "Mikk" written at the bus stop and now I got a horse named Miku!

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Ratsutamine

Ühe kunagi kuuldud mõistujutu tulemusena seostub hobuse selga saamine minu jaoks oma saatuse alistamise ja enda kätesse võtmisega. Ma sain ümmarguseks sünnipäevaks elamuse kinkekaardi, valisin ratsamatka ja lükkasin seda siis muudkui edasi. Küsimused, kellega minna ja sobiva aja leidmine olid keerulised. Lõpuks üle kahe aastaa hiljem suvel panin augusti algusse aja ja läksime sõbraga.

See hakkas muidugi väga märgiline tunduma, et lisaks sellele, et olin tolleks hetkeks tööalaselt kõik liigse oma elust eemaldanud ning raamatute kirjutamisele pühendunud, läksin enne seda lahku suhtest, kus ei saanud täielikult oma tiibu sirutada. Veel üks kokkusattumus: nägin nädal varem bussipeatusesse kirjutatud nime “Mikk” ja nüüd sain Miku-nimelise hobuse!

WINDMILL

I was on the ferry, having just shared with a friend in the car how I would like to go faster, higher, further with my goals…

I came across a stall in the toilet, on one side of the door of which was a riddle “Going up, can’t go up; coming down, can’t go down?” & on the other side the answer: windmill wings.

Since there was a windmill behind the gate of my ancestral home on an island and as a former airline worker I also love airplanes (which also have wings), it started to seem very significant… What is it that keeps me grounded and doesn’t let me fly?

And what helps me fly? Fascinating symbols.

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Tuuliku tiivad

Olin praamil, olles just autos jaganud sõbraga, kuidas tahaks oma eesmärkidega seoses kiiremini, kõrgemale, kaugemale…

Sattusin tualetis boksi, mille ukse ühel poolel oli mõistatus “Üles lähevad, üles ei saa; alla tulevad, maha ei saa?” & teisel pool vastus: tuuliku tiivad.

Kuna mu emapoolse suguvõsa kunagise talu värava taga Muhus on Eemu tuulik ja lennufirmas töötanuna armastan ma lennukeid ka (millel on samuti tiivad), siis hakkas väga märgiline tunduma… Mis see on, mis mind maa küljes kinni hoiab ega lendu ei lase?

Ja mis aitab mind lendu? Inspireerivad sümbolid.

QUEEN OF HEARTS

Sometimes there can be a bad day in between the good ones. After one of these, I slowly recovered… and in the evening I managed to go to the parcel machine on my bike to pick up a package that arrived. I thought it was a package of cosmetics I had ordered, so I was very surprised when I found a white T-shirt with a red embroidered Q (like Queen) and a heart. 

I had thought that when I ordered this shirt, I accidentally gave my capital city address and it would go there, so its arrival in my lovely small town was a real surprise. As was the timing - impressive, universe! I guess I had finally reached the pure energy of a queen who is true to her heart…

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Südamete kuninganna

Vahel võib visata idülli vahele ühe halva päeva. Pärast ühte sellist olin üsna ribadeks, toibusin tasapisi… ja õhtul jaksasin minna jalgrattaga pakiautomaati saabunud saadetise järele. Arvasin, et see on mu tellitud kosmeetikatoodete pakk, nii et suur oli mu üllatus, kui leidsin pakist hoopis valge maika punase tikitud Q (nagu Queen, kuninganna) ja südamega.

Olin arvanud, et seda särgikut tellides läks kogemata mu pealinna aadress ja see läheb sinna, nii et selle saabumine mu armsasse väikelinna oli tõeine üllatus. Nagu ka ajastus - muljetavaldav, universum! Ma vist olingi tõesti lõpuks puhtasse oma südamele truu kuninganna energiasse jõudnud…

TAKE ME TO CHAMPAGNE

I had been relaxing and doing nothing for a week, so on Thursday evening I really started to feel like going out with my friend, partying, drinking champagne, dancing…

Universum and Instagram responded with a stylish black and white photo of two girls hitchhiking, holding a sign with the text: “Take me to Champagne!”

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Šampanja

Olin saanud nädal aega mõnusalt puhata ja mitte midagi teha, nii et neljapäeva õhtul hakkas juba väga tunne tulema, et tahaks sõbrannaga välja, pidu, šampanjat, tantsida…

Universum ja Instagram reageerisid stiilse must-valge fotoga kahest tüdrukust hääletamas, käes silt tekstiga: “Take me to Champagne!”

BLACK SUV & MARRIAGE

My husband was thinking about changing his car when I suddenly remembered that over 20 years ago I teased one of my male friends by saying that I would marry a man who had a big black SUV! My husband had two…

I don’t remember where I got that idea from back then, but… ask and you shall receive! 

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Must maastur & abiellumine

Mees mõtles autot vahetada, kui mulle äkki meenus, et üle 20 aasta tagasi kiusasin ühte oma tollast austajat väitega, et abiellun mehega, kellel on suur must maastur! Mu abikaasal oli neid kaks…

Kust ma jutu selle toona võtsin, ei mäleta, aga… küsi ja Sulle antakse! 

ENJOY THE PROCESS

There are great places on the Internet where you can draw a weekly card - I did that and got: “I get to enjoy the process of creating my desires.”

Beautiful. And that's how I felt at that moment, in the middle of a wonderful summer - I was slowly writing the next book and enjoying every moment.

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Naudin protsessi

Internetis on toredaid kohti, kus saab nädala kaardi tõmmata - tegin seda ja sain: “Ma naudin oma unistuste teoks tegemise protsessi.” 

Ilus. Ja nii ma sel hetkel tundsin ka, keset Eestimaa imelist suve - kirjutasin tasapisi järgmist raamatut ja nautisin iga hetke.

YOUR TIME HAS COME

I went to radio’s morning show to talk about my new book. As I was leaving, two elevators were in front of me, one of them with a superstar show background image and text on the door. “The time has come. Your time has come!”

I took it as a good sign that this particular elevator arrived and the very doors with this text opened.

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Sinu aeg on käes

Käisin Star FMi hommikuprogrammis oma uuest raamatust rääkimas. Sealt lahkuma hakates vaatasid mulle vastu kaks lifti, neist ühe uksel superstaarisaate taustapilt ja tekst. “Aeg on käes. Sinu aeg on käes!”

Lugesin selle heaks märgiks, et saabus just see lift ja avanesid just need uksed, kus see tekst.

ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE

I had just finished my book tour, and I also went on the radio to talk about my new book. I met with my publisher that same day and said that it would have been great to go also on TV, but due to the spring-summer season, several suitable shows had already summer breaks.

Ask and you shall receive - the next day, a former colleague working in TV news wrote to me asking if I would be willing to comment on public transport connections in front of the camera. I happily helped her out, but I later laughed that I need to be more specific when formulating my wishes - I said that I would like to go on TV, and I got it right away, but in reality I would have wanted to talk about my book on TV. :)

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Küsi ja Sulle antakse

Mul oli raamatu esitlustuur värskelt selja taga, käisin veel raadios ka esinemas ja uuest raamatust rääkimas. Kohtusin samal päeval oma kirjastajaga ja nentisin, et tore oleks olnud telesse ka minna, aga kevadsuvise aja tõttu tõmbasid mitmed sobivad saated juba otsi kokku.

Küsi ja Sulle antakse - järgmisel päeval kirjutas mulle juhuslikult teleuudistes töötav ekskolleeg, kas oleksin nõus kaamera ees Võru ühistranspordiühendusi kommenteerima. Aitasin ta rõõmuga välja, aga nentisin pärast, et soovide sõnastamisel tuleb ikka täpsem olla - ütlesin, et tahaksin telesse, kohe sain, aga tegelikult oleksin ju tahtnud telesse oma raamatust rääkima. :)

MAGPIE

I had long known that magpies are considered a bringer of good luck in Asia and are associated with beauty, fun, joy, romance and success.

So when I unexpectedly saw a magpie on the top of a large fir tree in my garden on Friday afternoon, I was immediately excited - none of these beautiful birds had ever come to me like that before!

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Harakas

Ma teadsin ammu, et harakat peetakse Aasias hea õnne toojaks ja seostatakse ilu, lõbu, rõõmu, romantika ja eduga. 

Nii et kui reede pärastlõunal oma aias suure kuuse otsas ootamatult harakat nägin, olin kohe elevil - niiviisi ise minu juurde polnud ükski neist kaunitest lindudest küll varem tulnud!

ENJOY THE MOMENT

I had in one week three book presentations in three cities. The days in the capital were packed with meetings, so when, while rushing from one place to another, an ice cream ad with the text “Enjoy the moment!” caught my eye, of course it felt like a sign.

So true and the best reminder. Thank you, dear universe!

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Naudi hetke

Mul oli raamatuesitluste nädal, esinesin kolmes linnas. Pealinna päevad olid tihedalt kohtumisi täis pikitud, nii et kui ühest kohast teise vuhisedes püüdis mu pilku jäätisereklaam tekstiga “Naudi hetke!”, siis oli see muidugi kümnesse.

Väga õige ja parim meeldetuletus. Aitäh, armas universum!

GOALS

I saw a text on Instagram: “My goal: Making money Doing what I love With people I enjoy Making an impact on the world & Growing as a person.”

Since I had been busy with two projects that spring, I suddenly realized that the one closest to my heart (writing books) met all of the above criteria, while the other one… not.

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Eesmärgid

Nägin Instagramis teksti: “Minu eesmärk: saada raha tehes, mida ma armastan, inimestega, kelle seltskonda ma naudin, mõjutades maailma & arenedes inimesena."

Kuna olin tol kevadel olnud hõivatud kahe projektiga, taipasin äkki, et südamelähedasem neist (raamatute kirjutamine) vastas kõikidele mainitud tingimustele, samas kui teine laperdas mitmest nurgast.

EVERYTHING IS COMING

There was a bit of a fragile “What next?” moment both financially and emotionally… and then @spiritdaughter wrote on social media: “Everything you are working towards is happening. Everything you desire is manifesting. Every vision you have is unfolding. Trust the process.”

So beautiful and encouraging!

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Kõik tuleb

Oli üks natuke habras “Mis edasi?” hetk nii rahaliselt kui ka emotsionaalselt… ja siis kirjutas @spiritdaughter sotsiaalmeedias: “Kõik, mille suunas Sa töötad, tuleb. Kõik, mida Sa ihaldad, manifesteerub. Iga visioon, mis Sul on, rullub lahti. Usalda protsessi.”

Nii ilus ja julgustav!

RESURRECTION & HAPPINESS

In May I flew to Corfu, for the first time in my life, but since I was a child I have loved Gerald Durrell’s book “My Family and Other Animals” and through it the whole island.

I saw that all the hotels were full and started to investigate why - it turned out that at the same time in Greece it was Easter and Passover according to the local calendar. As I strolled through the island’s capital on that wonderful day, I also felt as if I had resurrected from a work experience that had seemed like a bad dream. In addition, there were broken pots everywhere - I read that in Corfu it is a tradition to break jugs during Easter. But it bring good luck…

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Ülestõusmine & õnn

Lendasin mais Korfule, esimest korda elus, aga ma olen lapsest peale armastanud Gerald Durrelli raamatut “Minu pere ja muud loomad” ning selle kaudu kogu saart.

Vaatasin, et kõik hotellid on täis ja hakkasin uurima, miks - selgus, et samal ajal olid Kreekas kohaliku kalendri järgi lihavõtted ja ülestõusmispüha. Kui sel imekaunil päeval mööda saare pealinna lonkisin, oli mul ka tunne, nagu oleksin üles tõusnud, vahepeal halva unenäona tundunud töökogemusest. Lisaks oli kõikjal potikilde - lugesin, et Korful on komme lihavõtete ajal kannusid puruks visata. Aga killud toovad õnne…

IKIGAI

I saw a picture on social media of a rope with the text “Ikigai” next to it and made of four strands: 1) what you are good at; 2) what you love; 3) what the world needs; 4) what you can get paid for.

Writing, writing, writing and writing? :) And in addition some reading, photography, communication, travel and social media?

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Ikigai

Nägin sotsiaalmeedias pilti köiest, mille juures tekst “Ikigai” ja mis punutud neljast nöörist: 1) milles Sa oled hea; 2) mida Sa armastad; 3) mida maailm vajab; 4) mille eest Sulle makstakse.

Kirjutamine, kirjutamine, kirjutamine ja kirjutamine? :) Natuke lugemist, pildistamist, suhtlemist, reisimist ja sotsiaalmeediat sinna juurde?

CLEANSING STORMS

I read an interview with a fierce marine scientist, and among other bits of wisdom, I was deeply impressed by the Australian proverb he quoted: “Not all storms ruin your life, some clear your path of debris.” 

Since April had been… a bit stormy, it had such a supportive and encouraging effect.

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Puhastavad tormid

Lugesin intervjuud Teaduste Akadeemia juhi ja ägeda mereteadlasega ning lisaks muudele tarkuseteradele avaldas mulle sügavat muljet tema tsiteeritud Austraalia vanasõna: “Kõik tormid ei ole sellised, mis Su elu ära rikuvad, mõned puhastavad Su tee prahist.”

Kuna aprill oli olnud… veidi tormine, mõjus nii toetavalt ja julgustavalt.

NEW JOB

A particularly wintry spring day and a trip out of town with colleagues - I've never really loved these team events. Of course, colleagues are usually nice, but this time the destination was in the middle of nowhere, the logistics were inconvenient, the weather was terrible.

We arrived, my feet were frozen, I went to the toilet... and then there was a picture of a toothbrush and a toilet paper roll on the door, with a speech bubble next to the toothbrush with the text "I hate my job..." and the toilet paper roll saying "Oh please!!!" - very unexpected and quite amusing, I almost never see things like this... but at that moment the feeling almost matched.

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Töömõtted

Üks eriti talvine kevadpäev ja väljasõit kolleegidega - ma pole eriti kunagi neid tiimiüritusi jumaldanud. Kolleegid on muidugi enamasti ikka toredad, aga seekord asus sihtkoht Kesk-Eestis, logistika oli ebamugav, ilm kohutav.

Jõudsime kohale, mul olid jalad läbi külmunud, läksin tualetti… ja siis oli selle uksel pilt hambaharjast ja tualettpaberirullist, kus hambaharja juures jutumull tekstiga “I hate my job…” ja tualettpaberirullil “Oh please!!!” - väga ootamatu ja päris lõbustav, ma ei näe selliseid asju muidu peaaegu kunagi… aga sel hetkel kiskus tunne sinna kanti küll.