Moving with a happy ending

I brought most of the things from my small town home to the capital and planned to start sorting them in the evening. Before that I went to my grandmother's place, on the way back from there, my eyes suddenly caught the text "moving with a happy ending" on an advertising poster by the road.

What a coincidence! And such a good sign!

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Õnneliku lõpuga kolimine

Tõin oma väikelinnakodust enamiku asju pealinna ja plaanisin õhtul neid sorteerima hakata. Enne sõitsin vanaema juurde, tagasiteel sealt tabas mu pilk ootamatult Pirita tee ääres reklaamplakatil teksti “õnneliku lõpuga kolimine”.

Milline kokkusattumus! Ja nii hea märk!

Company

I used to love debating which was more important, the journey or getting there. After my first few books came out, I felt like I had arrived anyway, which made the journey ahead much more enjoyable. However, a new perspective was given by a meme where the panda asked which was more important, the journey or the arrival, and the dragon answered: "Company."

So beautiful. I agreed.

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Seltskond

Ma armastasin kunagi väga arutleda selle üle, kumb on olulisem, kas teekond või kohalejõudmine. Pärast esimeste raamatute ilmumist tundsin end igal juhul kohale jõudnuna, mis tegi edasise teekonna palju nauditavamaks. Päris uue vaatenurga andis aga meem, kus panda küsis, kumb on tähtsam, kas teekond või kohalejõudmine, ja draakon vastas: “Seltskond.” 

Nii ilus. Nõustusin.

Life & holiday

I saw an ad that said “Every day is life. Every evening is a holiday." - and it was a beautiful idea for me. I have thought for a long time that if you love your work, it is enough to have a little rest every day. Balance is important in life.

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Elu ja puhkus

Nägin reklaami, mis ütles “Iga päev on elu. Iga õhtu on puhkus.” - ja see oli ilus mõte mu jaoks. Ma olen kaua aega mõelnud, et oma tööd armastades piisabki, kui puhata iga päev natuke. Elus on oluline tasakaal.

We still have time

After a long time, things were so bad that I even had suicidal thoughts. One such morning at the bus station, a drunken group was sitting next to me, where someone hummed the pop song "We still have time"! 

I remembered that I heard it after a long, long time one day also when I randomly turned on the radio... A sign.

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Meil on aega veel

Üle pika aja olid asjad nii hullusti, et lausa suitsiidimõtted tikkusid ligi. Ühel sellisel hommikul istus bussijaamas mu kõrval napsune seltskond, kust keegi ümises Põhja-Tallinna laulu “Meil on aega veel”! 

Mulle meenus selle peale, et kuulsin seda üle pika-pika aja ükspäev juhuslikult raadiot avades ka… Märk.

Perfect timing

It's funny that every time in almost ten years, when I've been sad about one certain person, the Universe has shown me the same sentence: “Everything you need will come to you at the perfect time.”

To be honest, in some moments of being pissed off, I've thought, no, I don't want to continue anymore... but as always, when the Universe has a plan, it is unstoppable.

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Ideaalne ajastus

Naljakas, et kõik korrad ligi kümne aasta jooksul, kui ma olen ühe inimese pärast kurvastanud, on Universum näidanud mulle sama lauset: “Kõik, mida Sa vajad, tuleb Sinu juurde ideaalsel hetkel.”

Ausalt öeldes mõnel nördinud olemise hetkel olen ma mõelnud, et ei, ma ei tahagi enam… aga teadagi, nagu ikka, kui Universumil on plaan, siis ta on pidurdamatu.

Hydrangeas

I was writing and thinking at the beginning of June and suddenly I realized that I have seen so many pink hydrangeas around me lately. These are the flowers of the beginning of June, aren't they, but of course I googled what is their spiritual meaning - I got the answer that the hydrangea represents gratitude, grace and beauty, as well as abundance. In Europe, they have also been associated with arrogance and boastfulness, as this plant can produce many flowers but very few seeds.

I did get food for thought - I was in a bit of a difficult place at the moment and I had also just asked myself if one of the reasons for these difficulties could have been that I had become a bit arrogant in the meantime? Humble is a particularly beautifully mellow-sounding word in English.

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Hortensiad

Kirjutasin-mõtisklesin juuni algul ja äkki sain aru, et olen enda ümber näinud nii palju roosasid hortensiaid. Eks need ongi juuni alguse lilled, aga guugeldasin siis muidugi huvi pärast nende vaimset tähendust - sain vastuseks, et hortensia esindab tänulikkust, väärikust ja ilu, samuti küllust, tänu oma priiskavale õitevahule. Euroopas on küll seostatud neid ka arrogantsuse ja hooplemisega, kuna see taim suudab toota palju õisi, aga vähe seemneid.

Sain mõtlemisainet küll - olin parasjagu natuke keerulises kohas ja olin endalt ka just küsinud, kas üks nende raskuste põhjus võis olla see, et olin vahepeal natuke ülbeks läinud? Humble - alandlik või tagasihoidlik - on inglise keeles eriti kaunilt mahedakõlaline sõna.

New beginnings

I saw a phrase that happy new beginnings are often disguised as painful endings. Resonated somehow…

Fortunately, I also saw a big Lidl poster "The best summer", which immediately made me happy.

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Uued algused

Nägin kuskil vilksatamas lauset, et õnnelikud uued algused on sageli maskeeritud valusateks lõppudeks. Resoneerus kuidagi…

Õnneks nägin ka suurt Lidli plakatit “Parim suvi”, see tegi kohe meele rõõmsaks.

Progress

I had made many changes in my life and felt that the course was set right again. I renewed the polish on my toenails and discovered, to my great positive surprise, that the small bruises that had been there for a while (probably from a long walk in not the most suitable shoes) had disappeared. 

Why this surprised me - I have only had them twice in my life, both times when I wasn't going in the right direction, and I had read that foot problems are related to a person's subconscious unwillingness to move forward with something in life…

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Edasiminek

Olin oma elus teinud hulga muudatusi ja tundsin, et kurss on jälle paika timmitud. Uuendasin varbaküüntel lakki ja avastasin suure positiivse üllatusena, et väikesed verevalumitäpid, mis olid tükk aega mu varbaküünte all olnud (pikemast jalutuskäigust mitte kõige sobivamate jalatsitega ilmselt), olid äkki kadunud. 

Miks see mind jahmatas - mul oli neid tekkinud vaid kaks korda elus, mõlemal juhul siis, kui ma ei läinud just kõige õigemas suunas, ning ma olin lugenud, et jalgadega seotud probleemid on seotud sellega, kui inimene alateadlikult ei taha elus mingi asjaga edasi liikuda.