In another life

I saw a text from @jmstormquotes that made me think of people with whom I have felt very clearly that they are so special that this is definitely not the first life we ​​are together: “And maybe I loved you in another life and I promised you that I would find you, somewhere on the other side. Or maybe you've always been in my subconscious. Nudging me this way and pulling me that until I found you. I don’t know but I do know I’ve felt you more than one life should allow.”

Pure gratitude.

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Teises elus

Nägin @jmstormquotes teksti, mis pani mind mõtlema inimestele, kelle puhul ma olen väga selgelt tundnud, et nad on nii omad, et see pole kindlasti esimene elu, kus koos oleme: “Ja võib-olla ma armastasin Sind ühes teises elus ja lubasin Sulle, et ma leian Su üles, kuskil seal teisel pool. Või siis Sa oled alati olnud mu alateadvuses. Nügides mind selles suunas ja tõmmates, kuni ma leidsin Su jälle. Ma ei tea, aga ma tean, et ma olen Sind tundnud rohkem, kui üks elu lubab.”

Puhas tänutunne.

Master

I was at home one Wednesday evening when the package I ordered from IKEA arrived. They had put my things in a big box with the big text "The Master" on it. This was quite an amusing sign for me, as the word means both master (and to me it means someone who has honed the art of living to mastery) and master’s degree. I was halfway through my doctoral studies in literature and found myself thinking that I might leave it because I did't really need to have doctor’s degree, the existing master’s was enough. And then a shipment with such a message? SO nice, I was obviously on the right track with my thoughts. :)

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Meister/magister

Olin ühel kolmapäevaõhtul kodus, kui saabus IKEAst tellitud pakk. Nad olid mu asjad pannud suurde kasti, millel ilutses suur tekst “The Master”. See oli minu jaoks päris lõbustav märk, sest see sõna tähendab nii meistrit (ja see tähendab minu jaoks inimest, kes on elamise kunsti meisterlikkuseni lihvinud) kui ka magistrit. Mina aga olin poole peal kirjanduse doktorantuuriga ning leidnud end mõtlemast, et jätta ehk pooleli, sest mul pole seda doktorikraadi tegelikult vaja, piisab olemasolevast magistrist. Ja siis sellise sõnumiga saadetis? NIi tore, olin ilmselgelt oma mõtetega õigel teel. :)

All the love

It was a beautiful sunny spring day, the last day (before next lockdown) when cafes and shopping centers were open. I went to buy wine glasses and then had a coffee in a cafe that was new to me. When I got out of there to walk home, a song came out loud from the speakers with the words: "I'm gonna give you all my love…”

I have the impression that if you shower yourself with nice experiences, that's exactly how the soul feels.

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Kogu armastus

Oli imeilus päikeseline kevadtalvine päev, viimane avatud kohvikute ja kaubanduskeskustega enne järjekordseid piiranguid. Käisin koju veiniklaase ostmas ning siis ühes enda jaoks uues kohvikus kohvil. Sealt väljudes, et koju jalutada, tuli kõlaritest valjult laulurida: “Ma annan Sulle kogu oma armastuse…” 

Mulle on jäänud mulje, et kui end toredate elamustega poputada, siis täpselt nii hing tänutäheks tunneb jah.

Make the most of the moment

Small pleasures and rituals add a lot of color to life. One of those that I really love is a delicious frothy café latte in a nice coffee shop. After being forced to stay at home during pandemic, I galloped enthusiastically to the cafe for coffee and cake… stopping only to take a picture and laugh at the big Paulig ad on the side of the road that said: “The right attitude and a decent coffee will go a long way. Make the most of the moment.”

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Võta hetkest parim

Väikesed naudingud ja rituaalid lisavad elule palju värvi. Üks selliseid, mida ma väga armastan, on üks hõrk piimavahune café latte kena kohvikus. Pärast pandeemia-aegset sunnitud kodus olemist kappasin suure entusiasmiga kohviku poole, et kohvi ja kooki nautida… peatudes vaid selleks, et pildistada ja naerda suurelt tee äärde sätitud Pauligi reklaami, mis ütles: “Õige suhtumise ja väärt kohviga jõuab kaugele. Võta hetkest parim.”

Fireworks

I came to capital and arrived home quite tired. And then the fireworks started in the distance outside the window... I have always interpreted fireworks as victory, recognition, a pat on the back from the universe, so I looked at it with joy like a little child.

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Ilutulestik

Tulin Võrust Tallinna, sealsesse koju jõudsin üsna väsinuna. Ja siis hakkas akna taga eemal ilutulestik… Ma olen ilutulestikku alati võidu, tunnustuse, universumi õlalepatsutusena tõlgendanud, nii et vaatasin seda rõõmustades nagu väike laps.

Love is all around

In the morning I went to suburbs, in the evening I went to the same direction to the restaurant with a very dear person. It was rush hour, so he also zigzagged a bit. In the park in front of the Hilton hotel there were lamps in the shape of red hearts on top of the trees, which I did not see in the morning, along the road I noticed advertisements of LHV bank with a big red heart, which either were not there in the morning or I did not notice them. It immediately made me think about the selectivity of perception and that signs are still magical.

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Armastus on kõikjal

Käisin hommikul Tallinna kesklinnast Viimsis, õhtul sõitsin koos ühe väga armsa inimesega samas suunas Noa restorani sööma. Tipptund oli, nii et ta siksakitas veidi ka, Hiltoni hotelli ees pargis olid puude otsas punaste südamete kujulised lambid, mida ma hommikul ei näinud, Pirita tee ääres märkasin LHV panga reklaame suure punase südamega, mida hommikul kas samuti polnud või ma ei märganud. Pani kohe mõtlema taju selektiivsuse üle ja et märgid on ikka tõesti maagilised.

Be still

The coronavirus pandemic, which started in China, had been raging for almost a year, when my husband fell ill. I sat with him in self-isolation for a week without any symptoms…. until I ended up with a flu too. I went to take the test on Sunday just in case and when I came back I saw a car with a cartoon, where a rabbit was aiming at a hedgehog with an air rifle, with the text: "Be still, I'll shoot you to Beijing."

Since the nurse had told me pretty much the same thing - be still - I looked at it and knew that as much as I would like to see there some more POSITIVE sign, it probably means a positive result. And that's what I got the next morning. And even though it ruined my mood at first, it later turned out to be a joyful path, because after that the numbers went up so much that otherwise I would probably have been frightened, but now I felt quite calm with my antibodies.

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Ole paigal

Hiinast alguse saanud kroonviirusepandeemia oli möllanud juba ligi aasta, kui mu abikaasa haigestus. Istusin koos temaga nädal aega eneseisolatsioonis, ilma igasuguste sümptomiteta…. kuni jäin lõeadtpuks ka nohusse. Läksin ikka igaks juhuks testi tegema pühapäevasel päeval, sealt tulles nägin Pesakonna koomiksiga autot, kus jänes sihtis siili õhupüssiga, juures tekst: “Ole paigal, ma lasen Su Pekingisse.”

Kuna mulle oli proovivõtja just üsna sama öelnud - ole paigal -, vaatasin seda ja nentisin, et nii väga kui ma ka ei tahaks sealt mingit POSITIIVSEMAT märki välja lugeda, tähendab see ilmselt positiivset tulemust. Ja selle ma järgmisel hommikul saingi. Ja ehkki see algul rikkus mu tuju, osutus see hiljem ikkagi rõõmuküllaseks teeks, sest pärast seda läksid numbrid Eestis nii üles, et muidu oleksin ilmselt värisenud, nüüd aga tundsin end oma antikehadega päris rahulikult.

Get there as agreed

I was in capital and I had to return to home town on Sunday, but everything was a bit vague, whether and how I would get back.

On Sunday morning, while thinking about it, I saw an advertisement with a picture of a car, with the text “Get there as agreed". I smiled... and that's how it went, by the evening I was back home, as planned.

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Kokkulepitult kohale

Olin Tallinnas ja pidin pühapäeval Võrru naasma, aga kõik oli pisut ebamäärane, kas ja kuidas tagasi saan.

Pühapäeva hommikul selle üle mõeldes jäi mulle Delfi uudiste vahel ette autopildiga reklaam, tekstiga “Kokkulepitult kohale”. Naeratasin… ja nii läkski, õhtuks olin kodus, nagu plaan oligi.